NO ONEcan bring me down i may seem breakable, but there is nothing to brake. It was taken a long time ago. So that look you give me i know what it means you think you’ve made we weak that I’m wanting youNO. What im really doing is making you want me.Making you realize i have a lot to offer. your relationship doesn’t faze me, nor will i come between it because I’m not that girl to do that to another girl especially one I consider a friend. Really what I’m doing is going to seem like i want you and your going to ruin it all yourself so watch out or confess how you feel about her or me.JustUNDERSTANDI couldn’t careless what you chose.

spaced out

I’d hope you know how cold my heart is and that your guilt filled lecture didn’t phase me one bit but I hope you know it did make me completely hate you. and I’d hope you know mother nothing will ever be my fault but only yours and I’ll never hold back this hate I have for that man so you shut the fuck up or I’ll have to put you with the others. I’d also hope you know its most definitely your Jon to give me what I want and need so your sister can shut the he’ll up before I slit her throat. and you most definitely should know fine because you’d much rather blame me and take the sides of damn children that curse me when I do turn 18 be prepared to lose me I’ll disappear find a better life and never include any of you in it. don’t bother because I do hate you. and what kind of karma would be coming for me I’m not the one who held you at gun point I’m not the one who’s choosing man over her child and I’m not the one who’s responsible for this life so save that bull shit speech for someone who cares…

I try to be my real self and they run and hide, I need a boy who matches me by my side. they never new how crazy I am, and that was my plan to keep it hidden away but it’s to late for me I don’t know who I should be my personality changes from left to right it’s one of the reasons I can’t sleep at night, so I cry, cry to relieve all the pain. then I take it back now it’s in my heart again. damn why do I do that shit that’s why recycle boys because I’m safe with it, that needs to change so I promise not to go back to him ever again@Blaine$Estabon

knowing this bloging site is freer than most just opened up a window in my heart, I’ve wanted an online diary without to much judgement… and I’ll let you in on something i have alot of fucking feelings to express about what I think about and how horrible my life is some times,